I’m seriously getting really disillusioned with everyone around me. I love my family and friends, but they are Ameri-brained as fuck and it’s hard to ignore.
First, yesterday I went to a sports game. The US national anthem was played and I stayed seated and played on my phone as always. Nothing special, I don’t make a scene or anything, just refuse to participate. Everyone else of course is looking at me weird and one of my friends was like “dude points at flag stand up” and I just shrug and say “I’m good” and go back to what I was doing. He didn’t give me too much shit but he rolled his eyes and the usual. Just couldn’t get past how people can know what my country is doing (I post about it a lot) and still show such blind support. It’s not a huge deal, obviously just a fucking flag but still.
Second, was talking to my family about revolution and change and they made some good points. They pointed out that a lot of people in USA are too well-off materially to put their necks out regarding serious change. But then they kinda started defending it like that was justified. They brought up people losing scholarships at Harvard because of the Palestine support rally. That’s shitty, but I still honestly feel like that’s what I would do and what the right thing is. Fuck my “successful” future, a successful future is making change any means necessary. The people in Gaza don’t have scholarships to lose and try telling them you didn’t speak up because you were afraid of losing it. Idk. Maybe I’m inconsiderate and it’s easy for me to say because I’m younger and have less to lose but it’s just like bro why are people so hesitant? I can’t imagine sticking my head in the sand, regardless of my material reality. I have a great life materially right now and I am willing to lose it for change. Not trying to be like moral high ground but just ye.
“If you’re asked to make a commitment at the age of 20 and you say I don’t want to make that commitment only because of the simple reason that I’m too young to die I want to live a little bit longer, what you did is you’re dead already” - Fred Hampton
Idk maybe too ranty but I just feel like I’m the only one that I know irl who’s really about it like that. Outside of my comrades organizing ofc I mean like personal life. But then again comrades = best friends so anyways I’ll stfu thx
i mean, it’s both of those at least. material conditions are still very good for so many Americans especially relative to the rest of the world so the unspoken thought is “why would i fight to change this when i can’t and also it is probably benefitting me to some degree and i don’t want to lose the stuff i have so i’ll do nothing.”
this assumes the person sees stuff like the genocide in gaza and even cares. many people simply do not care… as fucked up as that feels to really take in.
Cynicism is a cope. People see the genocide in Gaza and conclude they can do nothing about it, so they just tune out.
I’m listening to DemocracyNow daily at work and I think I’ve cried every day this week from the never ending horror show I hear about.
If I was more cynical I could just shrug and move on.
Yeah. I feel that. I just had a short cry listening to some myself. I don’t know how any human with any amount of a soul can witness what is happening to Palestinians right now and feel anything except horror and then disgust that so many support it. I would type more, but… probably not wise! Because the thoughts I have recently towards those who callously allow this type of shit… can’t type much more. “Free speech” my ass btw.