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I was the same way. I would drink tons of caffeine to slow down my brain (which made me feel productive because I could focus), but I learned to ignore the physical anxiety it gave me. I would fall asleep instantly because I was just exhausted all the time (and didn’t know, if you can believe it).

If I got to a quiet place like nature I would get butterflies and it turns out it was because I got away from the distractions of daily life and could finally feel that anxiety I learned to ignore.

Long story short, turns out I’m autistic and it was a form of masking where your body is so uncomfortable with being seen/being a problem that it will literally convince you that you’re fine. Wild. Glad I figured it out.

So I was this person, and I didn’t figure it out until later in life.

The trick is, with ADHD, caffeine will slow down your brain but it still speeds up your body (still a stimulant). So too much, and you will be tired and jittery.

Oh, good to know. I appreciate the info!

What’s AMP and why is it undesirable?

Leave now. Fuck your stuff.

1. get a cab

2. get a Greyhound to an area with a better outlook.

3. look for roommates in your destination city on the ride

Some of us got it*

(lol)

Right now water because I’m at work. At home… more for sure.

Having a variety of drinks nearby is a common autism/neurodivergent thing (ask me how I know). Not sure if that applies to you but there but where they are all distinctly different… Uh maybe look into it lol.

You sure? I usually have a good eye for that stuff and I don’t see it.

Most of us got it lol

If they’re brand new that would be fine, if they have been used, it may be even more dangerous because they’re full of trace fumes.

Lmao tell me you have no idea what you’re talking about without telling me. You probably prompted an AI that got confused and tried to tell you you’d get 5-10 min of burn time out of a small set of tanks.

First off the dude in the pic is welding. You can see the grounding clamp on the back of the truck. Welding sparks are white, torches are usually orange. And to get a welder to hit gas inside of a tank… 1-2 seconds.

If somehow those are torches in the picture, you can get oxy torches through the (up to) 2mm thickness of those tanks in no time (maybe like 1-2 seconds). Here’s a video of a guy cutting though 1/4" ~6mm in seconds, for reference: https://youtube.com/shorts/JLijFDI-qgA

It’s a funny thing, once the whole “boundaries” thing starts to click it sort of becomes addicting as you slowly realize “oh, I can say no to things I don’t like” or “I can ask for the things I wish I had”.

Eventually that leads to the secure attachment style (still working on this one myself). But since this began to “click” I have made 3 excellent friends that I don’t feel like I need to perform around and it’s wild to me.

Are you autistic/neurodivergent by chance? I am, and I read a book called “Unmasking Autism” by Devon Price, PhD and it helped a lot with this for me. Not sure if it would mean anything to people who aren’t though.

Point #4: definitely not minutes. 3-5 sec “maybe” but realistically I give it 1-2s max.

Says in the picture https://meizen.lol/ which seems to be accurate.

I recommend mindfulness training if you can. There’s a big difference between:

• “I’m a fuckup”
• “I feel like a fuckup”
• “I notice I feel like a fuckup”
• “I see that I wanted to label myself as a fuckup”

Brains and bodies will automatically attract to higher levels of comfort or peace, so you can start to see the trends in your mental health, it will literally pull you toward fixing it. It may not be a complete fix by itself, but you’ll be surprised how much it will do for you.

You are not your illness. Would you feel empathy for a friend with anxiety? Likely yes. If you give them that grace, why not yourself too?

I hope/am glad if this stuff helps.

Ooh, yeah, that changes things a bit for sure. I have seen services for motherboard repair on eBay. Maybe that’s worth a look?

If you are as handy as you say you are, just solder in a new jack. I’m guessing this is a Lenovo Legion based on the voltage. They are replaceable. I work in a PC shop and do them all the time.

Idk if this is valuable to you but it was to me so I’ll take a shot. This is about social anxiety but can apply to other types as well imo.

I learned that my social anxiety was because I would not stick up for myself. Anxiety and “fight or flight” are physiologically the same thing, so my anxiety was my body freaking out that I may be abused in conversation with no way to defend myself.

I spent years learning healthy boundaries and effective ways to handle conflict and confrontation and in my mid 30s I finally feel like I’m crawling out of the hole.

It’s a little annoying the thing I was anxious about and avoiding (conflict, embarrassment, making a scene if necessary) was actually the thing keeping me anxious in the first place but I’m glad I’m back on the climb out now.

I wish you luck in your journey, stranger.

Excellent!

Period every couple of weeks… lmao.

For every hour put “8am block” “9am block” etc and it will completely fill their calendar.

You could use a paper planner and refuse to use the calendar too.