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Cake day: July 14th, 2023

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  • It’s an interesting puzzle to see which things/symptoms you have vs which you have learned to cope/mask for, or which cancel each other outwardly but exist as internal contradictions.

    Most of the pure gifted and overlapping segments resonate, but the more isolated ones for ADHD and autism resonate much less. Makes sense, giftedness is a given for me, and allows me to compensate for a lot of other things (even if it costs me more energy than regular folks). It’s why I’m only now really considering the other aspects at age 37.

    My (computer) analogy is that it feels like my brain CPU has many cores and is overclocked, so much more powerful than a regular single core CPU regular folks have, but social interactions are something other folks have the equivalent of a dedicated graphics card for while I must simulate them on that overclocked CPU. It sort of approximates getting the job done, but it takes a lot of energy for a worse result.